Pepper and Salt

really moved.

2007-12-09T12:18:00.001+08:00

ok..i announced that i wanna moved to vox.

but a bad thing is that i can link u guys up again..coz there only allow members of VOX.

So sorry peeps. hehx...but next time please tag there...not here ya. =)

Please continue to support me in vox!!

I dunnoe if u guys can relink me in vox..should be can la hur...so...relink mi ya!~~

Moved.

2007-12-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

ok not really moved...but i've got another blog...

www.pingpiangpong.vox.com

it's much erm..clearer and nicer...and easier to use i guess...not that fanciful as this...

Over there shall be white backgrd ...black fonts...not like this stupid template with pink old entries...

no tagboard..but u can leave a comment...and..errr...no links...unless u're vox member too...

not that sophisticated anymore...just keeping it simple.

A place i write down my feelings....

Meanwhile i'm getting used to that..i'll still keep this open...will tell u guys if i'm closing this down..

Ciao~

Abrabrabrbarb Part 2

2007-12-04T14:21:00.000+08:00

Am supposed to work now..but after lunch makes me absolutely sleepy!! *slap myself*

It's december already...alot of holidays for this month...and also my BIRTHDAY month!!!

Min-na..wasurenaide kudasai!!!! (i hope i get that right...haha...* people..please dont forget!!!)

Darling is coming back on 12th evening...BUT going off to bangkok on 13th morning. Roar!!
will only be back on 15th noon...*sobs sobs*...ok la..nvm..i shall enjoy my "singlehood" for these 2 weeks..muahhahaa...*blink blink*

Just kidding...i'll get shot.

So lemme list out all the holidays and 1/2 days off work...and events happening!!!...

5th Dec : Suppose to have a briefing of my company's December Learning Day.
18th Dec: Actual Learning Day.

* I DO NOT wish to attend these 2 though...*pray pray* *

12th Dec : My boy is coming back for 1 night...(yes i know..a repeat.)

15th Dec: My mentor's bday..gonna get her sth..her surname is Liew too...we r one family..hehe..she's so damn nice to me..teaching me ALOT of things...love her lots...she's a HIP mama...her figure...woot...TOO hot for someone near 45. (y aint i'm like that? and also...y aint mama like that too? )

Yikes! My boss just told me that a report need to be due by tmr afternoon...gotta stay back to do liao..WHY!!!!! BUSY LEI!!!!...mm..ok...nvm...i shant say much coz i'm blogging..=p

so lemme continue..

20th Dec: PUBLIC HOLIDAY....dunnoe haji? aiya for malays..but it's ok...coz lao niang got holiday also!!!! HEE!!

20th gonna be the start of my happy journey man....

coz 21th is friday..juz work one day...so it's ok... and we r having gifts exchange in our very own department. den...

24th Dec: Xmas EVE...and we got 1/2 day!!!! but we r having Xmas party..i think? o well..NO WORK = HAPPY!!!

25th Dec: Merry Xmas!!!! Ho-ho-HO!!!!

orite..26th - 28th..back to usual working day...

29th = saturday = lao niang's birthday eve also Sijie's bday...going out with ah boy..

30th = LAO NIANG"S BDAY!!!!! also..anita mui's death anniversary. -.-" Thanks to her, my 1230 never appear in the lottery results anymore. Haiz...

31th : New's year eve....= ANOTHER 1/2 DAY!!!!!

1th Jan 2008 = Brand NEW year...= Public Holiday = Ah ber's bday = SLEEP LATE LATE!!!!! Muahahahha!!!

Then after 1th Jan...back to usual working life...@.@ Dreads...

and i better start scouting for my degree courses...and loans..blah blah blah...=(

faster finish degree...faster graduate...faster earn more $$...faster move out of singapore's armpit...faster marry....faster nag at ah boy for penthouse..(blink blink*)....slower give birth...slower aging...No quarrels...no problems..no shit (not that pang sai shit..i dun wan wanna get constipation...) = Wat a good life...

Dream a lill dream of me~~

WooHoo

2007-11-27T08:37:00.000+08:00

Ohaiyo!

Today is one of the earliest days i reached office. 8.20am!!!!! when i'm supposed to start work at 9..hah! Reason being, i was late for 15 mins yesterday and i left early abt 15 mins too...so today i made up for it!!....to save the naggings from my colleague. hee.

SO, of course my precious one offered to send me to work...

When we r going home ytd..

Him: Tommorrow, i send you to work ok...
Me: Dun need lah...very early lei..u sleep more lar..
Him: Nvm lah..i'm free anyway..i send u ok?
Me: Dun wan
Him: Ok?
Me: No-k
Him: ok...
Me: No-k..

and this "ok" & "no-k" last for awhile...till Me: I say no-k le mah...
Him: "ya la..okay la...u off abit ..slang abit will sound like okay liao.."

Me: -.-" faints.

Him: ok.

That's my boy. haha....So today early morning he woke up at 6.30..went to buy mac breakfast for me...usually is me who buy breakfast..but he want me to rest more so he went to buy today instead. =) so i slept till 7am...7.30 am my boy arrived. Hee. Maybe this is what they call bliss. It just make your day brighter...and you just wan to keep this going everyday.

so early early come here....slack till now haven start work..hah!
but i did open up my outlook mailbox lar...hahahah....=)

later after work meeting my boy ...den shopping @ vivo...i told him i feel like eating Carls Jr...hehe...=)

better get my ass to start my work...else i 'm really gonna continue to slack whole day!

Love you, Mr David. =)

abrabrbarbarbra

2007-11-21T11:25:00.000+08:00

now my system is down...only MINE..muahhaha...so i'm slacking away...till the system is up again. =) happy day. hahah...

i tk i'm too free...suddenly the dark engulfed me again. BUt just for awhile..i'm improving. =)

Nothing much, just that suddenly think of the life, how it will be without my family, her..?

I cant even imagine.

Financially, i know i will be able to cope.

Mentally...i'll go crazy...without her.

Though we only met and really get to know each other when i'm 7...but i just love her alot...reason simply she never gave up on me when i'm in my most dire state...and because of her, i became who i m now.

Digressing...

Boy and I have known each other for 21 mths, dated for 15 mths !!!!

Time FLIES right...=) it feel so like yesterday only. hehee...which is a good thing of cuz...

AND my boy cut his hair...until SUPER short. ....i tk skinhead to describe should be near.

i've got an "army" bf...@.@

Also, i've been sick for the past 2 weeks....i cancelled my drinking session with the girls...cancelled alot of things. =(

o well...lunch time haha..n i haven start my work...AHAHAH

later going to eat zhu chao with skinhead. =) *grin*

Touched...

2007-11-13T19:18:00.000+08:00

I'm touched by my cousin, for the first time (not exactly first lah), i felt that i'm loved by people around me...

Ever since i came to singapore, my mum will always bring me to this cousin's hse during weekends or sch holidays to play with this lill cousin who is just 1 yr younger than me. From the old time no col nintendo with game cartridge or sth?? to PS2...now Ps3...

I remember last time we both r shorties....n he's v round..n very cute looking...both our hair is the mushroom head style. And everytime i go to his hse to play, i will demand to change the game cartridge to super mario..cause that's the only game i know how to play..i'm nv good at games..whenever i played till the "beat-the-king" level...i'll bug him to help mi beat the king..
And i also remembered there's this bubbles game...u need to collect same col and they will burst blah blah blah...and he will lie on a pillow on my leg and play tt game with me...when my leg is numb..it will be my turn to lie on his....(coz the tv connected to the PS is high up on the wall)

Whenever, i snatched his things to play...my dad/mum will scold me...and i'll feel unhappy..and he will always go dig his precious nintendo and put it infront of me..tking i will feel happier after that..hahaha...little things like that...is always buried in some areas of my heart.

Now we have grown older...and i seldom go to his house..not every weekend nowadays..and we seldom contact each other..but i'm glad every new year we met, it feels like we r still the same. he will always go str to my room...and nua on my bed...or switch on the computer...very auto..lol...

Now he's in NS...last 2 weeks he got sent to Taiwan for training..and i just made a remark saying i love the pineapple tarts there...and when he got back ytd, he msn me saying he bought pineapple tarts and some lao po bing for me..=)

Just now my aunt called...saying she wanna send the goodies to my hse..den i say i'll get it from my cousin (his sister who is working beside me) instead. And she told me that my cousin got maligned by his officers that he stoled his roomie's $$

He's sleeping with this roomie and another mate came in without his knowing and after he's gone..this roomie's $$ is gone. So the officers tot its my cousin who stole the $$ and everyday come and search him..and his belongings. Den last day when they are allowed to go out of field to city to do their shopping...early morning those stupid officers came and search again and my cousin gotta pack back..and in the end he missed the bus out..(the tour)...

So in the end, he walk out himself... !! @.@ and buy mrt card and travel to taipei city to tour ard HIMSELF...and got my tarts and stuffs. Amazing...love him so much..=)

Very poor thing of him to get maligned like that...those stupid officers also dumb de...only noe hw to search people..dunno hw to investigate other ppl also...@.@ *roll eyes 360 deg.*

My cousin is very erm...decent and honest in good words...in another is those..kena bullied also wunt say out de..only now hw to swallow down the anger and come home scold. haiz.* Last time young kena me bullied also go to his room and put his face into the pillow and teared...den after that i go pacify him..den ok liao..hahaha...oh ya..he's the one who taught me how to cycle..hahaha! His sister is very different..since young..very independent...feisty type ...

All in all...i'm happy to be in this family to know this great bunch of people...=) His birthday is coming...mm 23 Dec...should get him sth..though becoz of some dunnoe wat superstitious reason he cant celebrate his bday...=( he's a capri too..hehe....See capris are nice people..=) esp capri A+ type. hahahha.

STRESSED!

2007-11-01T12:54:00.000+08:00

I AM VERY VERY VERY STRESSED!!!!

i think i stressed till i drop alot alot of my hair. And this makes mi even more stressed.
Stressed bout wat?

WORK

MYSELF

FAMILY

MONEY

ALOT more....

" I look into the mirror, i cant find myself."

"I look up the sky, i find myself blind."

I understand that every now and then, you will feel lost in your life path...

Nuff of the melancholiness....

I always thought of having a tattoo, but the prob is where???

Suddenly, i've thought of tattooing a "Dandelion" ...best on the hand...BUT..too obvious and not very good.

Back? mmm

And i think my mom will finish me off with one whop. So yea, i'll dream bout it...

I WANT to go to the beach to take a breather this weekend.
I feel like i cant breathe....every night i went to slp with a very heavy heart...wakes up..gets even heavier...

My fav song recently is jay chou's new song "蒲公英的约定" .....i like the melody. =) a lil sad...in between a pinch of hope....

Digressing again, Heredity is a very scary thing. It can be good..if you inherit the good genes, it will be a disastor if you inherit the bad ones.

Imagine, you suffer for 9 months...anticipating your to be born baby...and finally when it popped out...your baby is suffering from illness/disease/defected....at that point of time..you look at him/her...what would you think. ..

Else, your baby grew up happily only to find out that he/she has some diease which is congenital ...what will the parents feel? Blame themselves for passing the disease to their kids?
If it's me, i dun tk i will have kids...

but i love kids. =s

In middle, where to go? She wunt know where to go....only to move forward..and move forward...be it to the heaven or wherever...she just gotta keep moving...cuz she wunt want to give up...but neither she has the strength to fight alone for so long...she can only choose to forget...选择遗忘也许会比较开心...just like the song i like....the promise when both are young...till the day they grew up...they will only joke about it...but who knows..one of them had treated the promise seriously and still waiting...

Now nov 07 liao..soon will be 2008....den 2009....2010....wonder where i m in 2010...what i'll be doing? still working in NTUC? still not married?? ......

=)

What a Valuable FeedbAck.

2007-10-26T17:17:00.000+08:00

This is my job scope. Sucky job...and this is what my emails read (2 out of 5 frequency)

Termination of Ntuc membership requires 3 months notice. This is stated well and clear when u sign the agreement..serves you right if you din read properly..

So this fking member request for immediate termination, i replied using one of the email templates saying 3 months is a must. Den she REPEAT again saying she wan IMMEDIATE termination..and i send another email to explain saying it's stated in the agreement you HAVE to ABIDE it....

Fking member:
I wish to cancel my subscription to the above card. My particulars are:

CHERI Kxx Lxx

Kindly confirm by return email and please ensure the deduction of subscription fees through GIRO on 26 October 2007 shall not be done.

Me:
Dear member,

Your termination request has been noted.

Please note that for termination, there is a termination notice of three months. For these three months, you will continue to enjoy the benefits of a union member and shall remain covered under the NTUC Gift, a free group insurance covering all union members. There are other benefits that you do enjoy as a union member e.g. Fairprice rebate, discounted rate for chalet booking, special health screening packages at NTUC Medicare Family Clinics and etc.

Alternatively, you may wish to visit us at our website at http://www.ntuc.org.sg/ for more deals and promotions. Should you wish to re-consider your membership, please do not hesitate to drop us an email.

You may still use your NTUC card to enjoy the benefits and redeem your linkpoints within these three months.

You are not required to return us your union card; it will be invalidated by our system. A confirmation letter will be sent to you via mail. We will inform your respective bank after the last giro deduction. Therefore, you will not need to do so.

Thank you for your past support and best regards
Jaci Liew
Membership Department
NTUC Customer Service Centre
Please visit us at http://www.ntuc.org.sg/

Fking member:
I refer to my earlier email….

KINDLY NOTE – I WISH TO TERMINATE MY MEMBERSHIP WITH I M M E D I A T E E F F E C T ….. ( you tk lim beh dunnoe english izzit)

I called your call centre and was told that the process will take 3 months and that is not acceptable for me. (simi not acceptable, you not acceptable then lao niang gotta waive for you izzit..den ntuc can go home slp ah...dun noe wat's agreement izzit...)

I await your reply to confirm that this matter has received the necessary due attention and action.

Me:
Please note that the 3 months notice is stated in the agreement in which you have to give 3 months notice for termination.
Hence if you terminate now, your membership will cease on 31 Jan 2008.

Should you have any reasons pertaining to your immediate termination request, you may email us or fax it to 6327 3740 Attn: termination

I hope this clarify the issue.

Should you have any enquiries, feel free to email me.

Fking member:

WARNING! IF you are fragile jelly bean, dun read. But anyway not directed to you...*chey*

YOU ARE THE TYPICAL ROBOTIC DRONE THAT REPEATS WHAT HAS BEEN PRINTED FOR YOU TO SAY AND WRITE IN REPITITION – YOU BEHAVE LIKE A BEING WHO CANNOT FUNCTION WITH THAT GOD-GIVEN ASSET CALLED A BRAIN ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! WHAT A WASTE – YOU SHOULD DONATE SINCE ITS JUST IDLING AND REDUNDANT AT THIS MOMENT …

THERE IS NO NEED FOR A REASON FOR MY TERMINATION . . .. . AND IT ‘S NOT NECESSARY BECAUSE YOU CANNOT PROCESS IT EITHER BECAUSE THAT BRAIN OF YOURS PROBABLY CAN’T ANYWAY – IF YOUR ORGANIZATION NEEDS THAT 3 MONTHS SUBSCRIPTION TO FEED YOU – SO BE IT ……………..

-End of email-

I din know i worth $36 to feed me. Damn you...i swear next time my kids wont be named cheri or valerie (another bitch).

U tk lim beh born to let you scold izzit...i din know i'm a robot for 20 years..and i live thru and survived with no brain! WOW....straits times wanna come interview? i'm the only one who survived through 20 years with NO BRAINS!!!!
say i keep repeating...HELLO...Si Char boh...YOU ALSO KEEP REPEATING YOU WAN IMMEDIATE HOR....
it's because some dense woman dun understand that's why i have to repeat myself what. U think i so free izzit...juz attend to you alone ah...lao niang got so many things to do...your 36 bucks i throw at your face also can. Tk i no $ izzit...

I checked her bank account, most prob she wants to terminate is because there's no money inside. Damn, no $ say lar...act noble izzit...no $ lao niang can help you waive that $36 ....no $ wan to vent on me...you tk customer service centre do nothing sit there wait for your emails to scold us izzit.

Escalate to someone higher...bounce back to me w/o doing ANYTHING...ask me say THANK YOU FOR YOUR VALUABLE FEEDBACK. APOLOGISE.

Ma de what did i do wrong? i apologise...i still gotta thank her for scolding me ....kaoz...even if my EQ hits 200...still will blast.

everything also i do..that time recruit me got say so much or not..kns...i KNEW cannot be so good..pay u so high come here do ntn meh...kaoz...
Nv ask her apologise to me...still ask ME to apologise to hER...it's crude and bad..but really smlj.

Friends should know i seldom rarely scold vulgarities..but look how much swearing already. Really make me damn fed up. If face to face, she cfm die....kaoz..tk i young nice to bully hor...u TRY LAR....

火大

This and that

2007-10-25T14:27:00.000+08:00

Nothing really big happened. Just mm..abit of ups...a couple of downs... o well...everything's fine now.

Just had a meeting with my SG (Mr Lim Swee Say), quite friendly..when he asked what i'm in charge of..and i told him it's termination...everybody laughed..and everyone hoped i had nothing much to do. But sad to say, i'm busy like hell....but a small part is managing people lar...and replying emails..i can take whole day replying emails..take another whole day approving documents...another day checking through docs that are done, finally a day to do my processing...another to print...WHERE GOT TIME!!!!

Today's meeting bout balancing your work and life. Work wise...i think i'm doing fine..but can be much better so i'm still learning..
Life..mm...my life has been like that since dunnoe when...my shoulders just feel heavier and heavier....i'm hanging in there...

Lessons learnt recently, dun anyhow shoot.....i mean your mouth. People might perceive it differently as you did. To those you care, you wont wanna hurt them....to those you dont care..den it's ok. hahaha...=p
Anyhow, i'm learning...as i go along with this. BUmbles here and there...but i know you wont give up on me....err...i guess. Of cuz, if u 're saying bout those BIG mistakes...of cuz i noe wat's gonna be the outcome. hehe...

Alright, digressing...

Darling bought me Lancome Miracle Perfume...!!! and a damn cute HP pouch...will show photo next time...SO cute lar...it's like a mini cheongsam..only the shirt lar...den u slide the hp from the collar..n your hp is wearing the cheongsam....

ABSLOUTELY LOVE IT!!!!

and also some gifts from Vietname. He went there for company trip..did lotsa FACIAL...SPA...BODY MASSAGE... *jealous* and also drink lotsa BEER!!!!

This month is "eat-grass-month".....usual 400 to my mum (later in the month will still ask) ...maybe a hundred to my dad...9 nov is my aunt's bday gonna treat her to buffet...maybe another 150....300 for my phone bills...YES 300!!!!! all because of shanghai trip..=( depressed.
and i'm still owing my boy 350 becoz of the HP. left bones...maybe bones also dun have. i can only hope that next month will be a better one. haiz...

But nvm lar...my philosophy is that for my love ones..it's worth it. Cause i dunnoe hw many more years i still can do that...

i'm now in office...feeling super sleepy..din really get much slp recently...firstly cant slp..secondly not enough slp..
heck the saying Sleeping for 7 hours is the optimum ....my optimum is 10..

i'm in love with a balenciaga wallet!!! it's hot red in colour...and the design..the number of slots..this n that..fits my liking totally.!
*Hint Hint* my bday coming my dear Friends.....=) Can get me balenciaga voucher..coz u wunt noe which one i like...hahahahha....=p

ok...

I'm serious.

lol...

Corner With Fate~

2007-10-03T12:04:00.000+08:00

Things are getting better and better, i just hope that it will not just stop here. I'm entering another phase of my life, where i need to be even more independent even to the extent to stand firm and let people lean on me as support. My life isnt just me alone anymore...there will be someone coming in...and maybe one after another...that becomes part of my life..

.....................................................................................................................................

I'm not getting married lah. I just found a job that i think i will settle down for quite some time, one that will be my stepping stone to carve out my own career, and to assist me to complete my degree program. =)

I can say i'm happy now. Contented. Blissful.

I've got my family. A job. Nice loving colleagues. Nice working environment. A super nice bf.

Family issue are ok now...the one who take home the bread does the talking. Jiu si wa la....lolx...nahz..juz dreaming....trousers are still with my dad.

Job, colleagues - superb...obasans there love and dote me alot...=) and wat's most impt, i've got a good working partner...

Bf- he who wake up at 6.30 so that he can drives me to work and he himself late for his, from tuas/commonwealth or customer place to Raffles...with all the jams and fustrating vehicles on the road...all these only to fetch me from work. Knowing i gotta walk very far from the usual drop off point to my office, he now change to drop/fetch me directly from my building...
He who say loves me more than anything everyday...almost every conversation/sms ....
and alot alot alot alot more....most imptly, he's the one who can make mi shed off my armour, my brave front, my strong defence system, and cry infront of him....snuggled up to him, sa jiao to him.... and he act like a bitch to entertain me...all those stupid craps...he's really a bitch...my bitch-boy.

Back From Shanghai

2007-09-23T15:11:00.000+08:00

14 Sept : i'm off to shanghai..=)

15 Sept: Reaching shanghai at about 7am?? Cant really remember the time, after touching down, my uncle came to fetch us..with 2 big SUV cars.. there's a total of 8 of us...My cousin-in-law is super frendly...actually everybody is super frendly..haha..

Went to my uncle's hotel for some light breakfast before driving to Wuxi which is my uncle's place...about 2-3hrs drive from shanghai airport. Reaching Wuxi, after refreshing up in the hotel...blah blah blah..

what's most interesting is that...we met the typhoon!! yay~ so "happy" that it made me miss my shopping! =) i LOVE typhoon!!! Wheet...

Below are photos...highly recommended that u read from bottom to top..=)

Things i managed to grab when the typhoon are still sleeping...

Chloe Bag

D&G

D&G again..

Still D&G..(LOL)

Wondering why?? Because i went to wholesale centre producing D&Gs...Chloe...Gucci...LV...but the gucci and lv series there are too old fashioned..so i bought D&G and Chloe instead..=)

One Night In ShangHai~

We went to these village where all the ancient structures, stuffs...etc are still preserved as one of the tourist attraction..known as the Venice in China...There are still people living in that village..and their houses are all by the river..and their transport is either car/bus or Boat...

Lao kok kok kitchen

Lao kok kok houses and boats

what a nice view eh?

This is one of the residence we went to, this is the backyard garden...they are so damn rich they have alot of rooms...and the whole residence is HUGE..just like those we watched in those "ching ching ching" shows..(gu zhuang xi)

this is their erm..study room

the music room, where the girls are forbid to go out to "throw face" so they shall stay at home practice their zither? and poems..sewing...SEWING!!! Heng i'm not born in those era..if not i tk i'll juz knock my head against one of the lkk walls.

Actually got alot of photos taken in the lao kok kok residence and the lkk village..but mm..tk it's too boring for you guys..so yea..juz take the essence of all. =)

Shanghai Buildings are built in a very interesting way...
This is a pineapple building..dunnoe what's it for...

This is a handphone shaped building..it's their mobile company..cute right!!

One of the shopping centres...i'm living in the ancient city not the modern city btw..so yea u'll see alot of ancient building..left by the qing dynasty or the british empire..
Some of the buildings are very "china" ...while some are very "european"

Presenting you...ladies and Gentlemen...
Curse of the golden Flower...

My 2 cute niece and nephew..

Exotic food i had in shanghai...did i mention my every meal in this trip is just like some empire feast? Great load of food...and exotic food...peacock..turtle..fried ants..puffer fish...etc..
Abalone sashimi...and some shell-like dunnoe-what-it-is
but quite tasty...=)

TadAH~ say hello to turtle...!!!!!
cant believe my dad and my 2 cousins love it..Oh My God...

Luxurious fountain-like ceiling lamp

Our dining place

This is called Kungfu Tea
Gotta have skills to perform this..learn a lill there...=)

some ancient boat ...those ppl uses when they r eloping or running away from enemies.

Curse of the golden flower (1)

very nice scenery

seen this in movies or those martial arts dramas before?

Roadside stall selling beancurd..

Melancholic

This is one of the 4 beauties ...named Xi Shi...

Peaches!!! SO BIG AND JUICY !!!! We bought 3 big basket of that...

Whoot~ calm and peace...

I kinda like this place...alot of people though but i find calm and peace in there...=) maybe it's a holy place that's why...look how big that statue of Buddha is...one of the world's tallest..

Another great feast..those plates u see now are just cold dishes (appetizer) ...food are just coming in and in..and i've no time to take pics after that...haha.

Lotus pond

Lotus

Lobster sashimi..i heart!

Exquisite

Grand

This is the first meal we had after we touched down...except for the light buffet brekkie in my uncle's hotel...The room i went in..Whoa...BIG...this (below) are just part of the room...another side is above..with the dining table...Very nice!!!

On the way to wuxi...

After having light brekkie in my uncle's hotel...moving off to Wuxi.

Shanghai airport...

Shanghai Airport...

@.@

2007-08-27T09:44:00.000+08:00

After that chalet, i went back to slog in Ge.

cant wait for sept to come, cause i'm going holiday!! and also it's near to oct when i'm leaving my current job!!

Nothing much to update about, life still goes on....i'm still breathing...

Willie Davis said, " The road to success runs uphill."

Benjamin Franklin said " You may delay but time will not"

These are what i told myself each day. =)

Yohoo~

2007-08-10T09:24:00.000+08:00

ORITE, i'm back in action again ya..dun worry i'm nt dead yet...just busy working...n coping with life..=)

orite..like i mentioned earlier, i'm currently working in GE...handlings lotsa complains...
makes me wonder...how many different kind of people are there out there... e ans is "countless"

there are people complaining that their proposals that are sent to them..are slit...YES one DAMN SMALL CUT BY THE CORNER....and they COMPLAIN RIGHT UP TO UR HEAD... @.@

Some demand that their letters SHOULD NOT BE FOLDED....and YES THEY COMPLAINED AGAIN and ask u send them A4 envelope... Like how da hell i noe he/she wanted A4. -.-"
Try that to goverment body man...tell them..i wan my hp/phone bills..every bill statements i receive...i want them in A4 envelope...should you dare to fold my letter..i'm gonna sue u!
Try telling that to singtel..PUB...huh?

and some demand us to liaise with CPFB to ask them can process the premium faster or not ah? i wan to wait for my claims lei~.. -.-" u call CPF lar....ask them faster lar...siao~ ppl payment is at a certain date per mth...u ask them expedite for u lar...crazy..

and the story goes on......

See, there are really alot of weird people out there...and that's the disadv working in the CS line...if u r those hot tempered, cannot take ppl's scoldings..rantings...complaints...STAY AWAY FROM CS LINE!!

-end of my fury mood...gonna switch to happy now-

And SO, 8 Aug...we celebrated our anniversary..

It's not exact day though, but due to some personal reasons..we celebrated in advanced. =)

Ah boy gave me a pair of DIAMOND earrings.. (yea..i wanna show off cannot izzit..i'm proud of it wat.. -.-")

and...MOI gave him a pair of shades that he love from River Island..and some handmade gifts which i cant say yet..coz it's meant to be a surprise for him on 19 Aug (exact day) ^^

So on wed night, after my work...he picked me up and went for dinner @ Changi Village Hotel.

BEcause it's so damn dark already...i din took any pictures, u cant see it anyway...BUT i dare to say the scenery is SUPERB. Dining at the 8th floor, u can see the whole changi beach...and at the same time aeroplanes just fly past you as near as your neighbour walk past ur corridor...mm ok maybe not THAT near...but u can see the size of the plane nt as small as an ant in the sky...

For dinner, we had italian..Food is superb too! VoiLA~!

E restaurant is called "La Cantina in Venezia"

For appetizer, we had mushroom and cream.
E soup is super nice.. the best i've ever drank so far. The cream is rich, n yet not too milkish...and the italian mushrooms....big and tender...Wheet~! A must TRY!

After the soup we had this special of the day ...i cant remember the name. It's not on the menu, we had the waiter to recommend us the food..n he recommended this special appt of the day.

It's actually italian bread, with some bacon meat and dunnoe wat else on top...oven baked..with melted cheese and butter...Splendid. Just that i cant bite off the bacon meat..or wat meat lar...so i gotta swallow it as a whole. =s

Got a pic!

see the lightings, we sat at one corner..there are no lights! so..it's really v dark...u cant see clearly wat u're eating too. heh...tt's y din really take much pics.

As for main course, Ah boy had some seafood pasta ; Pescatora Spag. It's in tomato base..the sauce is v light, so if u dun like too rich stuff...u can go for that..personally i think that's still ok. However, the seafood is really very fresh. =) =) =)

As for me, i had some pasta stuffed with diced parma ham and ricotta called "Raviolo Di Magro" ..it's rich base...and it's NICE! v special...unlike the usual pasta...either spag, or macro..or shell...this one is like a flat curry puff...and inside there r stuffed ingredients.
=) =) =) =) =)

Actually we wanted to order pizza and tiramisu...but we were just too full to eat anything else. The pizza looks nice..with thin crust and really many toppings! I'll sure to try that out next time. =)

For drinks, nothing special..just some regular for both of us. Martini Bianco for him, whiskey sour for me.
One small lill thing, after we finish our main course, i'm left with big half of whiskey sour, and i bottoms up with him + his orange juice (he ordered another orange juice) ....and suddenly i feel i'm like @.@. and i was telling him i think i'm drunk....in the end...i still can joke ard and walk str.. -.- i'm not drunk afterall...But the feeling is erm...cool...hahahhaa...guess i'm too tired...

After dinner, he brought me to our lodging, ....the east coast chalet...reason? coz i love east coast loh...our chalet is just beside the sea...within erm..10 steps? yea...

and we actually wanted to play sparkles...romantic abit..in the end after bathing, we both fainted...n we slept till 5...saying we'll wake up to watch sun rise earlier on...he woke me up..n i'm still fainting...LOL!

eh..really very tired lei, i gotta wake up at 7am in the morning..work whole day..den after that wah really shag...=s

Thou we never do much, but it's nice to just spend time tgt ..jz e both of us.. heh.. N it feels nice to wake up in the middle of night or morning n u turned u see ur love one snoring beside you...=)

1 yr....not long not short..but it did pass fast...not much downs..but i can say it's all bout "ups"..alot of wonderful surprises along the yr...gifts...the listening ear..the advices..the hugs..telling me u're there for me...i really appreciate that..and i know there r still alot more to come...till the day we will nt celebrating anniversary anymore..but decades...and the story will still goes on. That's what i'm looking forward to...and working hard for...=)

Pictures...

2007-08-10T09:09:00.001+08:00

He gave me this...

The dining place...

My fav male lead..

the female lead...

Family...(dad + 2 sons) saw this scene
and think it's nice..took it down...

They r still father n son
thou they are walking in the different direction..

our lodging for the night...

my boy...

Going home...happily...

and i'm loving it...=)

Another world...

2007-07-22T12:02:00.000+08:00

Warning: This gonna be a longgggg post!

I've started my new working life @ Great Eastern, working as a Customer Service Associate. Alot of systems to learn, alot of workload...and man~ i miss NTUC. Kinda abit regretted WHY i dont wanna stay on in NTUC....with so much freedom. Msn~...shopping...super frendly and nice colleagues....and the most important thing is, i already know what i'm doing. I DONT have to learn all over again. @.@ Whyyyyyyy????????

But o well, there's no time for regret and i SHOULDNT feel so too. It's my choice so i just have to stick with it. Maybe this is just the beginning, once i get the hang of everything, i'll be happier. But did i mention there's no internet access in my current workplace? Other than the staffnet, i cant access any outside internet websites. Not even yahoo. Boring. I gotta raise RSA (some shit) to the IT department, to my bosses THEN i can get access after rounds of questioning. WHY DO U NEED INTERNET ACCESS? and how the hell m i supposed to tell them? O~ i need that pathetic internet access because i wanna MSN and surf net. @@ BAH!!!

Ok enough of complaining, i shall work hard to adapt to the environment, i HAVE TO. and i better to start liking my new job....coz this gonna be my rice bowl for quite sometime. Damn. Wat a cheap executive...
Oh yea, i'm a low level executive with NO OT PAY. Just because my title is executive level. Wah lao, my workload is damn lots...of cuz i gotta stay back and finish for the day lar...den tell me no OT pay. I dun mind having a clerical level title...and give me my OT pay can. I bet i earn more than i do now.
Ok shant complain anymore, but i just couldnt help it. MAAAAAA~~~~~~ NTUC~~~~~~~~Y DIN U APPROACH ME FASTER AND WHY SO "ngiao" with ur pay! haiz* Now every night i sleep, i dream of my work. Those emails...loads n loads of files and papers..scary.

Enough of GE, i'm gonna share sth my friend smsed me, which i think is quite meaningful:

人在成长的过程中，难免遇到挫折
懂得保护自己也要懂得爱自己
生命的乐章看你自己如何去谱写
躲避不一定躲得过
面对不一定最难受
得到不一定能长久
失去不一定不再有
转身不一定最软弱
别急着说别无选择
别以为世上只有对于错许多事情的答案都不只一个
所以我们永远有路可以走
你能找到理由难过也一定能找到快乐
懂得放心的人找到轻松
懂得遗忘的人找到自由
懂得关怀的人找到朋友。

很有意思吧？很多时候我们开心不开心都是自己的选择。遇到不开心的事，我们可以选择每天闷闷不乐也可以选择遗忘。路是自己走出来的。说的容易，听得简单但是就是很多人都做不了，包括我自己。总以为我已经走去自己黑暗的影子，可是每次那些回忆回来时，我发现我还是走不出来。也许走出来了，可是却还是一直徘徊着。

我不喜欢后悔，可是偏偏我有很多“后悔”。所以现在做事情就会变得所谓的“想很多，想太多"
满羡慕那些冲动派的人，想要做什么就做什么。有好有坏。。可是我是不可能这样的。我有太多的顾虑了。

我只是20 岁的女生而已，他们有想到我的梦想吗?

以前我很喜欢做梦，理想的梦。现在有一天过一天不敢想这么多。谁知道明天会发生什么事情，也不知道会活过明天吗？我的每一天不是失去而是赚到。我学会了要活的快乐一点，放开一点。很多事情我已经放开了。。人吃点亏又不会怎样。。在我的范围内的话是ok 的。哈哈。。。反正每次都是我give in...习惯了。

习惯了用微笑去掩饰自己的痛，习惯了在人家误解我的时候吸一口气然后说算了。不是没有解释而是有人听吗？再解释也是多余的。习惯了只是给人家看到我的笑容不是泪水。习惯了对自己说没事的，一切都会过去，要坚强不可以倒下，撑下去！

习惯是多可悲的事。因为不可以改变，没有了力气在改变，所以只好习惯。

Transforming?

2007-07-03T14:08:00.000+08:00

IT's PEELING OFF!!!!!!! MY FACE!

i'm taking mrt this morning, and all the way, i'm welcomed by stares and stares and STARES.
Because, my skin is peeling and ultimate dry. I cant apply makeup. SO, for the past 2 days, including today, i'm clean. makeup-less. and my skin is burnt, when i mean burnt is having a little of those blackish outline on my soon-to-peel skin. now my face is like a map, with little islands over. -.- MAAAAAA~~~~~~
I feel like telling them :" yes my house on fire, i got burnt while running out. that's y my face like that. =.=" It's rude to stare. Mama nv taught u that?

Like what i've mentioned earlier, watashi went to ECP with watashi boy. TRIED to learn swimming, but got drown in shallow water instead. Laughing now? You should. Apparently, i dont know what happen, i think i tried to float or swim when suddenly i juz "fell" into the water and starting struggling. Ah boy tried to pull me up, but i pushed his head down in the water instead. After much struggling and tugging, finally i was pulled up and both of us started to spit out whatever we have gobbled in. Interesting, aint it? o.0

After this hilarious incident, i started to cling on Ah boy like a koala. =(

I WANNA LEARN HOW TO SWIM!

But that day was fun, and we had to aherm, wash ourselves in the sea coz of the sand. It's high tide u see, so we were swimming with the garbage. Nice~
For some moment, u'll see MR. coconut swimming by to say hi, or Miss BIG Twig. Ah boy actually took one of the long twig or dunnoe-wat-is-it to imitate "Pirates of the Carribean" - on the black pearl..where all the monsters will go onshore with their twiggy legs.
*Our very own production "Pirates of ECP - Haunts of loud Laughters"
Please support will ya?

Ytd, i was on 1/2 day leave. So got home pretty early, tried to blog in "chinese" ...but i really gotta say...
MAN~! THAT"S HARD!!!!! i spent like so much time figuring which one is the correct word...but still i'll try again.

Ah boy say i've auntie nature. The never die spirit, and kiasu spirit.

Well, i'm proud to say now i no longer fear the mrt. Muhahhaha. FOr i'm one of those that push people too. HAHAHAH! and i always aim at those students look alike. Coz they will either alight at clementi, dover or bouna vista.

BUT! sad to say, i got cheated a couple of times. When the mrt approached dover, i'll happily and gladly awaiting for him/her to stand up so watashi can sit down. But they just dozed off, or still sitting there...looking at me..coz i'm glaring at em'. and i'll always stared at them, see when they alight. To my surprise, they wear like student and they alight @ Raffles. *big sigh*

Ah boy has been away for 2 days, i'm still doing fine. BECAUSE he's back on thurs for the weekend. HEE!

Miss him. Because he miss my smiles, my loud laughters, my stupid mouth expression, etc.

Ps. i'll be away @ kuantan beach resort on 20-24! YippEEeeeEEE
Yummy seafood, the sea! the beach! the breeze! here i come!!!!!!

and oh, TRANSFORMER is quite nice. You Should watch it. I love the bumble bee.

Announcement

2007-06-28T11:54:00.000+08:00

Yoo-HOO~! I'm back again~! Got some photos to post, but i'm just too lazy. SORRIE! Will post it by this weekend. Been rather busy for the past week, busy working....earning money (top priority)...busy pak-toring..yea..so BUSY busY.

Ah boy is going to bangkok this Sunday. =(
Basically he's away for almost the whole july. When he comes back, it's less than 20 days to our 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY. *gasp* FAST RIGHT?!!!

It seemed like just yesterday i'm in Atotech, feeling bored cause' there's no hunks...not even one tt's close to my age. Then this fella appeared on my 2nd day...and tadah~ we r together.

Amazing, aint it? I still find it abit unbelievable.

So other than missing him big time, i'm gonna start my jobs hunting!
I've gone to one interview in Great World City yesterday. The job is fun and interesting...sales coordinator @ ToyRus under Li&Fung Group. My job is NOT selling toys oK. It's very versatile and the workload can say is alot...ranging from POs to logistics..to FASHION SHOW. YES, fashion show. This is because, Li&Fung Group is a MNC that has brand listings too. So brands like MANGO, Ferragamo, Country Road, CK , etc and under this organisation. AND i get to coordinator fashion shows, sales, blah blah blah..means..imma gonna meet models and hopefully celebrities. =D Aint that great?! PRAY that i get this job.

Well, i got a phone call earlier from KEPPEL. Another interview on Monday..some engineering post. Not SO exciting and INTERESTING...just usual engineering stuffs..u noe. ya. so..well i'll still go for the interview and see wat they offers me. =) If the pay is good...mm..can consider. Muahhaha. And it's in tuas, nearer to my hse..and hahaha my personal blue cab can ferry me around too. Love jazzie....mmmm so Jazzilicious~!

Last friday went to chill with the huiwei, fiona and yanping @ Indochine. The drinks are so-so. Had long island ice tea, baileys on the rock, singapore sling, cocktail champagne, Blitz.....

Anyway regarding the announcement, yea...i've got an english name. It's for the convenience for future. As EVERYBODY knows, my name is damn hard to pronounce and confusing. So i think it's good to have an english name, and people can remember u easier =) I hated it when people tries hard to pronounce my name. =(
SO i chosed "Jaci" which means moon in some greek language. =)

Jaci actually comes from Jacelyn..and Jacelyn is another form of Jacqueline. Yeap. So i'm Jaci Liew now ya. hehe. For work purpose and new people i'm gonna meet next time. =)

Gonna watch TRANSFORMERS this saturday. Ah boy is leaving on Sunday. Not gonna send him...i prefer fetching than sending. =) And also swimming in east coast this sat too. =D FINALLY, we r going DOWN to get a feel of the waves and sea-water. So many times there, we just swept our feet on the shore...fly kites...picnic...drinking the coconut and the delicious Chicken rice. =) But i'm just gonna play water...coz watashi dunoe how to swim. =)

So will post more photos ya...

Till then....Buh byeeeeeee

Oh my GawD!

2007-06-19T16:23:00.000+08:00

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.
You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds.
You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you.
Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now.
For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

To my loved ones

2007-06-15T12:58:00.001+08:00

After reading some of my friends' blog, i suddenly realised i've really grown up. In fact, all of us has changed to young adults. Reading those entries, really make mi touched. Reminiscing back, alot of things are just so amazing. My life is really filled with amazement and wonderful memories.

Sometimes humans really have to be slapped hard on the face to realise how silly and stupid they have been, to wake up and change for the better. I'm glad i realised this early which lead to the number of friends, good friends in fact, around me today.

I'm not a very expressive person. Alot of things, i might appear to be nonchalant; but i really treasure u guys...alot..alot.

To those, who cared and loved me, who taught me my homework, anxious my project for me, protecting me from unreasonable people,

THANK YOU.

Same thing like yp:

YP: Totally wonderful sister. i'm amazed at our frendship too. Alot of people come n go, but u're one of the few who stays. Years after years, the distance between us just got closer n closer. Thou' we hardly able to go shopping nowadays, but i know our hearts are still close together. =)

Emily: As sotong as last time, maybe slightly abit smarter. Although we always bicker around, but when things happen u're always there. Still love you lar hor..dun get jealous over my bf can. haha.

Eileen: We've never hang out ever since sec sch. But still, i'm always here for you to cry on, and hug. Although alot of times i wanna slap you, for ur stubborness...but i still love you lar.

Fiona: Yes u, i also wanna slap you alot of times, coz u just dun listen. But some parts of you are similiar to the py-at-night. I understand you well, and i noe u understand yourself well. u know alot of things, but u just choose to run away. But no matter what, there's always a small corner of u in my heart.

Cy: Another stubborn girl. Emo. Lazy. But i still able to take it all eh. hahaha. i know u love me...hahahha....coz i love u too mah. Lao po, dun always take things too hard ya. must learn how to let go at times too. =)

Lala: It's really great to be classmate with u in my final sem. We faced each other more than our mothers. We had several heart to heart talk. And several times, i made u nearly cried, coz i reminded u of the past. haha. Love u girl...and PLEASE DUN FOREVER MIA. -.- Please reply my sms can? =s

Kenny, xijie, wee hong, melvin, weijian, lionel : Thanx for standing up for me whenever i'm being bullied by others. Feelings are beyond words. Just a big thanx y'all. Thanx lionel for walking the long expressway to acc me lunch during attachment.

To that star: Ur death changes me but also make me realised how ugly the world is. Thanx for awakening me.

To those who comes and goes, i learnt alot of you all too.

mmm...suddenly realised, i've really really grown up alot...and changed alot.

Lastly to the special one : No matter what happen, you are always there for me. Always willing to my complains and rantings, be it always the same old things. You never fail to lend a listening ear, a shlder. You're the one who makes me pour everything out, have the courage to face everything, put down whatever happens in the past and look ahead. You make mi realised, the world is still colourful and not just black white grey. I enjoyed your jokes, your smiles, your mimics, your company. I enjoyed just staring at your face when u're driving, staring at your back from far. Most of all, i enjoyed being your gf. =)

For my Boy...

2007-06-15T10:06:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!

l^o_v^e l^o_v^e
lovelovelovelovelovelove
lovelo elovelo

ve ve

Weather like Hell

2007-06-13T19:23:00.000+08:00

Recently, i'm sick. Down with flu...fever...now cough. I haTE COUGHING / SorethRoaT!! They are so annoying. From last thurs, i'm on mc for 2 days. And because i'm still sick, i din get to meet up with my boy on sat. =( and now today!! Wednesday..i'm having fever agaIN! Oh man~...hope i recover fast, if not sat i wunt be able to meet up with my boy. He's gonna be so sad......coz he misses me alot, u see. hahaha...

Yesterday, went to sakae AGAIN, becoz our dear SATOSHI is enlisting to army on 14 june..which is tomorrow!!!! ALL THE BEST U HENTAI! I know u gonna miss your hentai....But don't worry, soon u'll be able to come home and hug all ur dollies. We'll definitely miss your shuai-ness. NP no.1 Shuai Ge.

Before you read further down to my roadtrip entry,

I'll like to say a BIG THANKYOU to my boy.

You see, he's @ work today. But because i'm feeling uber unwell, i can faint anytime...i smsed him if he's nearby so can send me home at 1. Coincidentally, he is, but he's going back to office, so if he's gonna pick mi up..it will be at 12..but i cant leave yet. So i told him, i'll go home by myself.

Minutes later, received a sms from him...he's coming to pick mi up at 1. =)

And now, poor boy is still at work...when i'm typing this entry.

Thank you baby....=D *亲两个* 爱你哦！

All right, vomit finish can read bout my road trip liao.

*shy*....running away....

One day trip in Msia (Batu Pahat)

2007-06-13T18:43:00.000+08:00

On 10 June 07, my family and Emily's family went on a road trip to Malaysia! We gotta wake up pretty early - 5.30am, because the coach bus will be arriving at 6.15am. Overall, it's quite fun and there's alot of laughters here and there. Let the pictures do the talking then...

The Dry sea
P.S. This sea is very cute, when it's low tide it looks like the one above, e houses will be on dry mud. But when it's high tide, the dry part will be covered with water and the sea-houses will be in the middle of the sea. Cool eh?

The Dry Sea & Sea-houses

Very cute rite!

Singapore Top Model endorsing "The Triplet"

Munching Tapioca Cracker (1)

Tapioca Cracker (2)

Everyone is holding/eating tapioca cracker!!

and of course....US!

This turtle is super cute! Its leg are super long so when it walks, it seems like the shell is floating.

Zoom in

A rock?
NO! It's a HUGE turtle!! Spot his head and tell me the ans~
* No prize though*

Munching through the journey

Dragonfruit Trees Parade. See how straight and still they are. *salute*

台客? nah..it's 巴客
Local batu pahut ah beng.

I've got dimple?!

On the road...

The very uncomfortable coach with friendly and cheerful elderlies.

Best Friend 4-Ever.
ROck On BaBY~!!!

Changes (2)

2007-06-07T14:07:00.000+08:00

I know this comes abit late, but i still would like to post this up. Please be patient to watch finish the 2 videos, esp the first one where the female lead talks bout her changes. Whenever i watched it, i'd still cry. I know lar...dun laugh at me. It's just that, i felt close to it.

What's all below is all videos!! Enjoy!

"i've deserted my friends, my dad, and myself.
i don't even know who i am anymore."

Do you still remember when's the last time u really laughed from the bottom of your heart? When's the last time you tell your parents you love them and the last time u feel this world is beautiful and u're "pure".

The old man is the kang hanna's dad, and the other girl who's singing is her good friend.

Digressing, the guy is super SHUAI!!!!!!

This is the part where she don't want to acknowledge her dad:

Shout-out to those who have not watch this movie. GRAB the DVD now, it's out! It's a nice show lar. n yes i noe i've repeated for the zillion times. LOL.

I especially love the song "star (Byul)" the one she sang on that concert.

Here's the translation of the lyrics:

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

Another song i love : Kelly Clarkson - Because of You

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Qual

2007-06-05T12:45:00.000+08:00

Ich möchte gerade mein Leben friedlich führen und glücklich.

Changes...

2007-05-30T13:46:00.000+08:00

A couple of minutes ago, i've just ended a small conversation with my ex-student. Although it's just a short chat, i realised she has grown up alot and matured alot. I'm really glad for her. Recently get to meet up with some old friends, some are still the same, some changed. I started to think, changes...mmm...did they change? or I've changed myself..

Maybe i'm constantly changing without my knowing. I used to be bad tempered, used to be "evil", used to be damn selfish. USED TO. Now i seemed to be very adaptable, easy going, my temper has toned down alot. But some changes make friends drift apart. I can seem to be able to understand them, and find it surprising on some of their behaviours...it's kinda scary...but to think again. Meant to be will be. *shrug* Mayb i'm just too lazy to care. haha. Friends, no matter what, will be by your side whenever needed..that's what i believe. Although u guys nv meet for ages, nv spoke to each other for long...but once either one meet with some trouble, help will still come.

It's not i dun wan to share my problems or act hero bout it. It's just that sometimes, i dun noe how to put it across to people. Some things are just so indescribable....beyond words. O wells...i just gotta take it along my stride, aint i?

MuahahahaHAHHAHA

2007-05-29T11:37:00.000+08:00

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful
But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself
You're the perfect blend of independent and caring
You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

Hahah....accurate!...and i'm sure my guy knows it...dont u? hahah..

Beautiful...

2007-05-27T12:29:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i'd like to ask...Who knows how to print photos ah? My printer is able to do so, but the sad thing is...i know nuts bout it. I wanna print photos!!!!! Please teach me, will ya?

Last week was good. Except monday whereby i'm on MC, the rest of the days (tue - fri) i managed to met up with my boy ! It's not easy ...not that hard also lar. hehx. If i never remembered wrongly, we chatted abit on how i feel and stuffs and of course his. All i can say is...i'm one rational lover. The confidence is getting weaker...and i dun mind bout it either. =) i'm letting myself fall...

It's quite scary for me to say out sth that is so-not-me. I apologized for being so.

"I can see the future in you..." How does this sound? .....Vague...generalized...kinda sweet...kinda lost...all in all...marvelous to me.

"You sit inside lar, your husband go park the car here..." ....mmm..this sounds even better! I'm grinning like a "바보" (pa-bo) and sat down obediently like e handkerchief boy (ger).

One cheeky picture of him:

一旦有了开始，有了爱，就会有放不开
在你身上我习惯了依赖。

This Specially Dedicated to my Dearest LaLa...

2007-05-26T09:22:00.000+08:00

Hey you..yes you...LALA!!! Where the hell are you...you are soooooo hard to reach and to go shopping or wadever.! AND BECUZ u DON'T HAVE A TAG BOARD and...i gotta post this here.

I read your blog, .....the poems/songs....I LOVE THEM. I can really really feel it...coz some of them are what I'm feeling at times. All i can say is...you are one damn talented FREAK! What are you cooping up at home? GET RECOGNIZED!!!!

Peeps, do check out MS DALILA's blog. Da QuarterPastChaos.

Totally love the blog skin...your arts...your songs....

One of my fav:

All I Got Left Is My Passport And A Whole Bag Of Regrets
©Quarter Past Chaos

Watching the world pass me by,
I watched the time slowly ticking away.
As the sun sinks into the horizon,
I stood by watching until the last light fades away.

What have I done?
Did I, I let you down somehow?

No one to save me from myself,
Save me from this nightmare.
No one to hear me when I scream,
All alone in the middle of nowhere.

As the rain falls down to earth,
It seems like the world is crying for me.
My paper heart keeps tearing apart,
I can't take this anymore. Save me.

No one to save me from myself,
Save me from this nightmare.
No one to hear me when I scream,
All alone in the middle of nowhere.

What have I done?
Did I, I let you down somehow?

As per request...

2007-05-21T12:11:00.000+08:00

I'm back to update. =) This time round with some photos, FINALLY! Boy and I went to ECP again on saturday after watching "Blades oF Glory". It's quite a nice movie, quite funny. But one pity thing is that, the 2 male leading actors are not hunks. It will be excellent if 2 of them r gorgeous looking. *winkz* But have to salute to them, their courage to wear tights and in those sparkling sequins costumes. But one of the actress is quite cute though. Hah!

Look at the girl! *Big Grin*... And oh..the 2 guys. = s

*Peacock in sequins!!!*

*2 men on Ice....ooo-la-la*

Moving on,

Us in East Coast Park. As usual, we had great fun there, though no kite flying no picnic this time round, we still enjoyed ourselves. Solely each other's companionship. We always managed to create fun and laughters of our own. I remembered my "HA-HA-HA-HA" - MAN laughters in ECP. I think the fishes in the sea is pretty annoyed by my laughters. =x "It only takes your presence and one smile to make my day =) " Though i seldom say it, but i'm sure u can feel it. hee. I LOVE YOU BABY!.........................*shy*....running away.....

orite, enough of the mushy stuffs, here are some of my retard photos, get a laugh folks! ..at least a smile ...

With GREAT chemistry, we made the same mouth expression! hehe. That's how "chemistrical" we are. HAH!

After watching blades of glory.

LAst week @ work was quite hectic for me.....mostly in the morning. My boss was on 3 days mc and i've got quite a bit of stuffs to do. Seldom there's situation like this (below) on my desk...even there are forms, those are not FILES ...they are just hard copy forms....But can stack quite high though.

ALL THESE PAPERS! i need to go thru them ONE BY ONE!!!!
But nvm, =) that's work....hehe...

ONe last thing i'll like to share...are the following pictures. They are from one taiwan drama series casted by "SHOW" (baby..u shld noe wat's my tone ya =p) Luo Zhi Xiang and Barbie Hsu, named <<转角遇到爱>>
It's quite a nice show i find, quite cute and some parts are funny. AND BARBIE HSU IS PRETTY!
They are actually nicer ones...shown during the show, but i dont know where to find those. I can only find these.
SO if you know where to find these, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!
Thank you!

P.S : This is what my boy smsed me last time. I find it very nice, and i can really know the effort he put in. Because i tried to do the same, i gave up. - Dun think i'm useless ok, i dun wanna do the same as him, i tried double heart...but totally gave up. I guess i can just show my love through hugs and kisses. lolx...

yo-Yo=YO

2007-05-15T14:05:00.000+08:00

I'm in office now, but i have nothing much to do. Boss' on mc, sooooo it's a lac lac day. Nothing much to update also, coz' no more HEALTHY OUTING. Last weekend is shopping day....actually wanna go to the UK funfair, but in the end, both of us are tooooooo tired. That's why we headed back home and had dinner. =)

I've been working in NTUC for about one month, environment is not bad. the people are friendly and helpful. Make friends, and more exposure; knowing what kind of customers are they. Some are really hilarious, while some are really pissing me off.

I miss the beach and the BIG coconut!!!
Shall go again this weekend. HEE.

2007-05-05T18:50:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe if this works. COZ just now i actually BLOGGED and when i publish IT WAS BLANK...with only my title and labels. WT*? SO in short..i blogged bout i'm rejected by NTU, BRAVO...

So these are the 3 things i'm gonna do:
1) Appeal
2) NIE
3) SMU

So help mi pray i got in ya.

And i've also apologised to my buddies...PLEASE DUN DUMP me. MY baby,darling,honey....CY,YP,EMily...i'm really busy recently...weekdays gotta work..sat is for my man...sun is rest day/family day. BUT i promise i'll meet y'all for dinner...if i'm not too tired after work..orite. =) I still love u guys...

And i wanna tell satoshi..."next one will be better.." "Friends never leave you..." =) Ur mei mei is always by ur side ya. =D

NOW...

I wanna blogged bout a movie i watched earlier on. WHY? BECAUSE IT"S SO DAMN GOOD .....I CRIED!!! I CRIED!!!!!!

I din even cried when i watched titanic.

The movie is "200 pounds beauty." If you one of those whom think that this movie is just like any typical movie bout slimming down..den find a prince charming....and yes u're 1/2 right. HOWEVER, it's not just bout that. It's bout..."not forgetting urself..who u are ...and the people who are by your side..irregardless of what you are..."

During the part when the father of the female lead actually got pulled harshly, my tap started to leak. When the female lead gave her "speech" during her concert, my tap lost control ; running like nobody business. I just felt so close. KINSHIP is my weak point. Noone matters as much as my family. YOU Can take my life, BUT GET UR HANDS OFF my FAMILY. I lead my life with their lives at stake. ok..maybe not so garang..but i can sacrifice my life for them.

You'all should know my memory is NOT good. But i kinda remembered that "Kang Hanna" the female lead said sth like she has forgetten who is kang hanna, forget who she was...and the people around her. She has lost herself. I felt so close to this. 'Cause myself...alot of times, forget who i was. She used to be very happy..although she weighs 200 pounds..and of cause i dont weigh 200 pounds lar..not this kind of close. But i used to be very very happy...although most of the people will not remember things that happen before they are 5 years old..but i do. Cause..everything is not just a memory..it's a impact brought upon me. I suddenly remembered my playmate....Anna...and the guy whom i protected...he's short and fat and "toot" ...nobody plays with him..and i asked him to join my "gang" . haha. U noe kids..always have this kinda things..gangs lar..watever.

Everyone...no matter what happen...have a period of time when he/she is very happy. Genuine Happiness. And when people is at a higher standard of living, eg u're a manager or CEO, u tend to forget...mayb ur meals are just porridge and salted eggs in the past.

O well..i dunnoe how to describe lar..so i shant say anymore. =)

ANYWAY, it's a gOOD moVIE...and the SOUNDTRACK IS NICE! ANYONE HAS THE SONGS FROM 200 POUNDS BEAUTY...PLEASE SEND TO ME...PLEASE!!!!!!

2007-05-05T13:09:00.000+08:00

hghgjhgjh

VOiLA~

2007-05-05T12:38:00.000+08:00

Waiting....

2007-04-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

My latest Hobby...

2007-04-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

..............is

Peeling off my skin. Sun burnt skin i mean. hehex. They feel like thin plastic coverings! I enjoyed it....ya i noe..i'm sick. *Shrugs* A fact shall always stay truthful...o.0

Being normal is Blessing

2007-04-25T11:09:00.000+08:00

Everytime i walk towards the mrt station (underpass) after work, it's heartrending to see a few of those "beggars" along the pathway. One of them really makes mi feel "being normal is a blessing", he's selling tissue on a wheelchair, his head bend low not because he's begging but he could not lift his head up. He's left with bones, the eye sockets are sunken in and his skin is wrinkled with lotsa bruises. Everybody walks past him without a second glance, he tried hard to bring his head up to make eye contact with at least one person, but he could not. To us, we often raised our eyebrows, some even can do the alternate raising stunt easily; to him, he needs to really really sum up all his strength to make his head barely 3cm above his wheelchair table, stretching his bony arms trying to sell his tissues, however, ignored. If he's married with kids, he shouldn't be there. Where the hell are his childrens?

I felt bad, 'cause i'm one of the many that just walked past him. I should have turned back to give him a penny or two. But i didnt.

Walking down, something cross my mind. I felt really really blessed that i m normal. Normal meaning, i'm not disfigured, or born with some weird features, thou not perfectly fine, but at least, i'm living good with four healthy limbs, perfectly in good working conditions organs and stuffs.

It feels good to be alive. Really.

Albert Ellis said "The art of love ..is largely the art of persistence."

Not just love, but living. The art of living..is to persist. Everyone started out at one end of the tunnel. U go through all sorts of things e.g education, fights, mistakes, lessons, etc, till u reach ur peak. Some perhaps, a manager, CEO, director, professionals. But some will always remain in the dark tunnel. BUt of course, persist in the right way.. :)

Wheeeee

2007-04-22T09:45:00.000+08:00

Alrightey..i'm back again. hEe. I've got quite a few to blog bout. Lemme start with those randoms:

1) My "updated" desk:

Presenting: my blue smiley mug, my spongebob softy!! and my best friend, cisco phone. =)
* i've yet to bring pillow to ma' office. Geez.

AND FINALLY, i've got drawers!! YippEeee~!

2) The Singapore Flyer:

Across the highway near esplanade, you can see this HUGE round thingy standing beside the highway. It's a ferris wheel..named the singapore flyer. Boyfriend saw it first, and told me about it. When we were driving to East Coast Park, i saw it. It's HUGE. Caught a photo of it,

And this is how it looks like when it's done,

Magnificent view, isn't it?

3) East Coast Park on 15 Apr and 21 Apr:

Feeling quite down on 15, went to meet boyfriend after his car washing and headed to ECP. Had some arguments with her, some usual stuffs, again, i'm feeling tired of it. I really gotta stay strong to get what i want. And i will. Reaching there, i reminisced that very day, the one and only, my whole family went for a picnic in ECP. One and only because that's the last time we went for a picnic. Oh well..ECP changed quite alot. Of course, i haven been there for quite some time. =) It's not very accessible unless you have a car. =) It's splendid to see those surfers, and sails out in the sea. Suddenly i feel like i'm in California! haha.

Super nice clouds and great waves.

Big wind, and my man is happy.
I'm Happy too. =)

On 21 apr, we decided to go back to ECP again. This time round, picnic! I made Ham n Cheese Sandwich, Potato Bacon Salad and Butter corn~! haha. YummY~...And we brought along the kite to fly also. Haha. It was a fun day~! and i purposely wore Sleeveless, cause i wan a more even tan on my arms, in the end, i burnt my shoulders. SUN-BURNT!! and it HURTS!! -.-

P.S: Will Post pictures of the picnic. Those are with boyfriend. =)

P.P.S: He's not only my lover, but also my best friend, play mate, debate partner, soul-mate, confidante, and my moralizer.

Cancer..

2007-04-16T16:44:00.000+08:00

"Cancer"

Turn away,

If you could get me a drink

Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded

Call my aunt Marie

Help her gather all my things

And bury me in all my favorite colors,

My sisters and my brothers, still,

I will not kiss you,

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,

'Cause I'm awful just to see

'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,

Oh, my agony,

Know that I will never marry,

Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo

But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living

And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)

Goodbye today (goodbye today)

I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

This is one of my favorite song by My Chemical Romance. The first time i saw the lyrics, i'm touched. I feel close to it, not saying i know how it feels to have cancer, the pain and torment, but how it feels to have someone close leaving you. Alot of times, things come unprepared. You might be happily dining with this person and the next moment, u'll recieve news that he/she's dead. Maybe you guys used to be loggerheads, or even enemies, but suddenly, everything is gone. The hatred, the quarrels, bickers. I remembered when i was younger, kids including myself always like to scold "you go and die lar!" or even worse "go to hell lar!". But we never know the real meaning of those. My man once said, "baby, dont use the word 'Hate'. It's heavy."

I'm not being emo in this entry, just wanna share this particular song and also treasure. Sometimes, sitting with my group of besties, my brothers and my boyfriend, i like to just stared at them, feeling the bliss and hapiness. I thank god for letting me meet them, the great bunch. =)

So lemme share my wonderful weekend:

On last saturday, boyfriend and I decided to go KITE FLYING. Believe it or not, i'm so damn sua gu that i've never fly a kite before. So, together with his twin sisters and boyfriend, we headed down to marina bay. We bought 3 kites, and trust me, it aint so easy to get the kite flying. I'm running like cow, and the kite just barely 5 metres above ground. And boyfriend kept laughing at me, cause i'm running tugging the kite tgt with me. ??? Shldnt i run?? He said just pull abit, release abit, den the kite will start to fly. BUT THERE"S NO WIND LAR! Then finally, when boyfriend's kite managed to STAY up high, it started to rain. The rest all scurried to shelther, i gotta run to take my dearest man's slippers (basically he took off and run around the field like kampong boy) and then run to my man's side. It's raining, and again my BRAVE and ADVENTUROUS boyfriend stayed on in the rain. So i stayed and accompany him till the kite cant fly anymore. And both of us are drenched. But it's nice. =) Romantic Rite! I know lar..hahaha...dun be envious ar. hehe. :P

After that, we decided to go for dinner. But he doesnt have much cash, so we decided to go to marina bay mrt stat to withdraw. BUT! NO ATM IN MARINA BAY MRT STATION LAR!. wth? den we actually meant to turn back home and eat downstairs, but since we're already there. I asked the rest if we all have enough $ to eat steamboat, and tadah~ we turned back to steamboat.

U think the outing end so nicely? U R WRONG.

While walking towards the car when we r looking for raffles mrt, my DAMN SLIPPERS SNAPPED. -.- and i gotta walk barefoot to the car, den after that, i wanted to walk barefoot to eat steamboat but boyfriend say dun wan. So my slippers is so pathetic that we used plaster to stick it down. -.- Wth...and i'm so fustrated walking ard dragging my feet as the plaster keep dropping off coz it's raining. Finally ard 7.30, we managed to settle down and eat. WHat a day.

HECTIC

2007-04-12T15:28:00.000+08:00

-In office-

Work is real busy for me. There's endless of applications to process, and mainly mine are foreginers. Shoutouts to those who wanna get to know some rich man..who are OLD, can come find me. haha.
Now i'm currently waiting for my colleague to finish opening the letter before i can further proceed to the applications.

Just now earlier, Kenny and Satoshi came to visit me and accompany me have lunch. GREAT THANKS TO THEM. When we first reach lau pat sat, it's not raining. When we settled down ready to have lunch, it started POURING!!! GOSH. In the end, i had to call fiona to bring down umbrella for me. GOODNESS i ate at lau pat sat today which is just beside her co. -.- If not i'll become one gothic ger, due to the smudge of my eyeliner.

when i reached office, kenny called and told me our dear satoshi NEARLY GET KNOCKED DOWN by a MOTORCYCLE. And guess what he did? He STOPPED the MOTORCYCLE using ONE HAND. @.@ I dunnoe if i should say he's fit? strong? or stupid? so please ah, SATOSHI, when u read this, PLEASE DONT CROSS THE ROAD AS IF IT"S UR FATHER"S.

*but still, i appreciate for just coming down to marina boulevard just to acc me lunch. *BIG GRIN*

Another SWEET thing i wanna blog is :

Yesterday, i reached home at ard 11pm, was extremely exhausted and jaded. Boyfriend is going to penang this morning, and due to the fact that he's only there for 1 day, he decided to drive to the airport. His flight is at 11, he's meeting his boss at 9.30, HENCE, he's able to send me to work!. =)
And there's a little surprise, he bought Mac brekkie for me!. hehe. Maybe this is nothing to some of you, but i dont care. I think it's sweet, not just the brekkie, but going to work with ur man driving beside you, a kiss gdbye before u start your hectic work too. AND ESPECIALLY, my man loves to sleep and actually he could have slept till 8. But he woke up at 7, buy brekkie and send mi to work.

Another thing is, i'm settled to a comfy work station, this time round, with DRAWERS! yay! and i'm slowly conquering the office. I brought my smiley mug, and SPONGEBOB softy which yp gave to me! hehe. and i've stocked up my drawers with cookies! =D *proud of myself*

oh ya, my colleagues said i've alot of facial expressions. Do i? mm...my man said i've got alot of silly faces. heh. :P aiya...but i know lar...they are CUTE rite. hehe..i knew it. *blush*

......running off......

My darlings

2007-04-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

Just now, my cousin brought her 2 daughters to my house. The younger one (left; white dress), whom i dote most and also closer to me, shouted "pan-ying jie jie!!" at the doorstep. And when she entered the house, she immediately ran to me and gimme a big hug. =) Isnt she such a sweetie. Love her max. She's just 5 yrs old. Her sister, 6, is more shy and "dao". But still, always come to me and "talk" to me. haha. Cutes..

Here's what they drew on my bedroom floor:

Presenting: The elder sis drew this. On the top, she wanted to say "i love u" to me, but she doesnt know how to spell out fully. =)

Presenting: The younger one.

*P.S. I've realised kids are so adorable. In their world, there's only play, eat and fun. No politics, no burden, no worries. It's gooD to be a 5 yrs old kid. I miss being 5 yrs old myself too, but not older than tat, coz "hurt" "sad" start to appear in my dictionary.

~Everyone started as a clean sheet of paper, with kind nature. ~

Back In Action

2007-04-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

Yes yes..i know i have not been updating for quite some time ya. So tadah~ i'm back now. =)
Firstly, last week was a busy one. Mon and Tue i was away in Msia for the "qing ming festival". Becuase i gotta work on wed, i had to rush back on tue, reaching spore in midnight.

Right now, i'm working in NTUC centre (not the fairprice!) as a membership processor. lolx, meaning, all the union members application are processed by me! Work environment is ok, female species occupying the majority. Had my own kinda table, that is like erm...just a table wif a phone n computer. BUT, i'm very glad that i can access to internet which means..MSN and surfing~! haha.

Presenting: My work station

As for gooD friday, nothing much to blog. Just another qing ming trip to Bright hill Columbarium. Dad's not going, so i woke my dearest boyfriend up to drive us there. =) Thanx darling.

Next on: UBIN TRIP ON SATURDAY

Boyfriend and I decided to go ubin. SO early morning (9.20am), we set off to BP plaza to buy some snacks and bread. Reaching changi village at around 11+ we ate "breakfast" first, den we took the bumboat to ubin. It's a pity that i din took a pic of the bumboat. hehx. Dun roll ur eyes lar..i sua gu can?

When we reach ubin, it was pretty hot, after renting our bicycles, we are ready to set off! After a while on the main track, my BRAVE and ADVENTUROUS boyfriend decided to go off-track. SO we cycle into this very narrow and muddy and rocky trail (note it's not road, it's trail). This really amazed me alot. Firstly, the insects really made LOUD noises and it's comparable to ur home hi-fi surround stereo sound system. Secondly, we are surrounded by swarms of mosquitoes! and when i say swarms i'm not exaggerating. I was walking behind david and i can see crowds of mosquis hovering ard him and his black col backpack. Just like houseflies on some dung or dead corpse. and as for me, having sweet A+ blood, i'm attacked mercilessly. Then as we about to proceed further in, boyfriend met with a Huge spider web and thus we decided to retreat and go back to the main road. Thank god for that. We continued to cycle around, and i was laughed by him, saying i'm riding one of the smallest bicycle, but i made the loudest noise when i'm braking. haha. Aiya have to let the rest of the people know that i'm speeding down from the slope mah..so must siam u noe. hehx. Other than this, we saw BIG wild boar, monitor lizard...and there's a cute dog following us. And we have some bread, i decided to feed him one. When he saw me taking out some food, he was so damn excited lah! Wanting to get the food from me..he gotta listen. When i asked him to sit down, he really sat and wait guai-ly for the bread. haha. So cute lar! Well, i dun wan to write anymore, just look at some of the pictures ya. hehe.
Presenting: "Yo, i'm the wild boar mentioned above. I know where's the camera."

Presenting: "Here, take one of my strong, sexyback. Wanna hop on and hitch a ride?"

Presenting: Artz on the beach (I)

Presenting: Artz on the beach (II)

Presenting: Artz on the beach (III)

When i reach home, my hand look like this:

Nice tan hur? lolx. It's only on the surface. Got this while cycling. the fairer part is because i'm wearing watch. Geez. Now i've 3 shades on my arm, starting from the shlder : White, Chinese, Malay (red). Ok mayb not malay. But u noe wat i'm trying to say hur. hehex.

Ps: latest thing between us is " qing-liang-ge" and "how much? - This much (comes with action)" [it's ok if u dun get this. He will. and i'm just trying to remember. =)]

Penniless

2007-03-29T22:31:00.000+08:00

I recieved the RED BILL for my broadband. =( SO i die die also gotta pay today, if not they are gonna terminate my internet. I cant survive w/o it, that time dunnoe what the hell happen, suddenly my internet is down for like 2 or 3 days. I'm like living in stone age; reading newspaper, storybooks, walking around millions of times at home, cleaning up my room. AFTER paying the $90 bills, i realised my bank account is left with just $1. Pathetic, aint it? and this means, i seriously need a JOB RIGHTAWAY, okay mayb not rightaway, i can only start work on next wed because mon n tue i'm away in KL. Hai, i've got a job that requires me to start work today but i turned it down. *big Sigh*

oh well, at least something good for today :

International Buffet at Ulu-Ulu Safari Restaurant (Night Safari)

Because my aunt, who is a staff at Night Safari, has 2 free buffets, so she gave it to me. So boyfriend and I went for it. The food was not bad, but not much variety though. Just the usual satay, fried rice, pasta, chicken, HONG KONG roast duck, etc. Cold dishes like smoked salmon, tuna, sushi, the octopus. =) n some hueys like the "jiu chen gao" (multi-layer cake?) bf's favorite.
The buffet is worth $35! which i dun tk it's worth it to pay lar. Heng i got it free. Muahhahaha. BUT the toilet is nice lar. haha. i took one picture of it.

Theme is "the 60s" Look at those clogs.

Acting cute, pouting my very-kissable lips lolx!

It's Freaking Accurate!

2007-03-29T10:43:00.000+08:00

Colorgenics Test

Here's my result:

You are very ambitious and because you seek and need recognition, you try in your own way to impress people and you want to be looked up to - to be both popular and admired. You feel that there is a gap which separates you from your fellow man, or woman as the case may be, but this anxiety is an unnecessary one. Keep on the way you are going and you may surprise yourself.

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.

You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt to give your all - heart and soul - to all those that show you a little affection; but take care - it would appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourself wide open for punishment.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

Overwork - be it mental stress or physical strain, you are completely worn out and this depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel disappointed with your obvious lack of energy and powerless to do anything about it. You are angry with yourself and this frustration shows. You are contradictory and argumentative and feel helpless to change the situation at this time. Take a break - even if it is only for a few days - allow yourself to breath, to unwind - you'll feel much better for it. Then trust and let go.

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2007-03-27T12:07:00.000+08:00

I dunnoe if this one works, but hopefully it do get post out. For the past few weeks, i've actually got a blog already which fiona signed for me. HOWEVER, i cant seem to be able to sign in to that one. SO, i decided to sign a new one myself.

Actually i'm not really a blog person, but was thinking that sometimes i'd want to share a few things with my friends, or rather just has a place to write/vent out my fustration/happiness/philosophilic-kinda-thinking (which i do have alot at times when-after i dont even know what myself are talking bout.) I often sank into a drunk state..(not literally lah!)

Well, for the very first post, basically i've nothing much to complain bout lar. haha. Life's gooD recently. Mayb next time when u guys always come to read my blog, u'll realise i like to complain alot. Yea..i do..but i just complain lar..n very soon these things will be over. So lemme think of what happen recently,

After reading ross's blog, i've decided to go prawning as well. So i round up all my fellas and boyfriends' for the prawning. And everything went well, we went to buy food for the BBQ..n so on and we happily started to prawn..until 9.15pm. I realised that our 3-hours booking is up, so i told the uncle (proud tat i'm so honest to tell him myself) den when i pay him $25 (3hr for $25), he looked stunned. This reaction of his brought along my shock too. After that, i talked to the boss, and realised it's 3 hours for $25 PER ROD. -.- For goodness sake, i've already went down to the prawn farm to check the rates out and i asked again n again that if it's paid by rods or hours. And the uncle can happily tell me "ya..we dun go by rods, we go by hours lar." so apparently there's some misunderstandings lar. Feeling kinda dissapointed, gotta pay 175bucks in the end, and everyone gotta fork out like $14 instead of the $7 i promise them earlier. Oh wells..i apologised for that, budds. I think i must look pretty stressed out because in the end, everyone is surrounding me and kept telling me "it's ok, dun angry lar. Come drink green tea." and boyfriend kept hugging me and *shio shio*. haha. Well, lesson learnt : dun expect cheap offers, and please make sure u ask properly till the uncle fed up and shout at u "YES IT"S BY HOUR AND NO MATTER HOW MANY RODS U HAVE U STILL PAY MI $25!" =)

The above incident happen last friday. Geez.
Wow i realised this post gonna be lonnnngggggg.. coz i'm going to share the conversation mi n my bf had last night...

Sometimes, after those craps, we'll always settle down n have some erm..views n opinions kinda talking.
Well, we are talking bout some common friend of ours who actually rejected the boyfriend's proposal after together for 8 years. So boyfriend asked me what i'll think if i'm that guy who's being rejected.
My ans was that if my gf said give her some time to consider, den i'll just give her some time to consider lar, and i wont take it like "oh man~wth..she actually said this instead of just giving me a readily YES." and if after consideration, my gf told me that she's not ready to get married (emotionally) den i think..THINK la..will continue the r/s and just wait till she's ready.
My boyfriend's ans was that, he'll take it hard..and i think he mentioned that if the ger said bout the considering thing, he'll take it that she doesnt wanna get married or sth. Well, i dun really remembered what he exactly said lar, but sth like he'll take it hard lar.
Then i was thinking, if he were to ask in future, wat will be my ans? Marriage aint no game, it's a lifelong thing, unless u're ready for divorce lar. but i'm not. So i think i'll need some min to really think thru, are we ready to proceed to this phase or not? But he said sth very true, u gotta think this thru before that day comes. But based on current situation, if he asked i'll be happily saying YES. haha. I'm tired of being alone...shouldering all the loads. It'll be nice n sweet if someone is there for you, of cuz he's there for me now..but it's different as a boyfriend n husband. =)
And we always have this thing brought up again and again. "if either one of us fall for other ger/boy, the "victim" will not beg/ask the "culprit" to stay/comeback." Meaning, if i were to side track, my boyfriend will not ask me back or try to salvage the r/s, same goes to me lar. This is a very common thing between us, actually our thinkings are more or less the same..and the possibility of us falling for other people is actually quite small. And we both agree that if we were to break off one day, the reason will be us. Mayb either one of us changed to a extent that another party cant accept. BUT definitly not because of a 3rd party.

FOr me, is because i'm so damn lazy to go n know a new guy and make myself known again. This process is tiring, i've gone thru this for 6 months, i'm not gonna repeat this 6-mths thingy again. and of cuz, he's that gooD tat i dun even bother to look at other guys. haha.